On Sunday, January 5th, 2014 I began my fourth attempt at Insanity.
I don’t know what it is about this program. I can’t seem to get into the groove yet can’t seem to stay away from it. So time and time again, I start over with stars in my eyes, imagining a Memorial Day beach romp in a teeny bikini sixty days in the making.
I get through the fit test. I get through Day 1. And then, I quit, formally parting ways with Shaun T by yelling expletives at the screen and stomping through the house yelling about how much I hate working out.
Well, here’s the thing. After taking an enormous break from any physical activity and generally eating a little more and little worse than usual during the Holidays, I began Insanity (again) with the wrong intentions. This is my Insanity mantra:
“I don’t want to do this. This is uncomfortable.”
And lo and behold, I never get past Day 1.
But I will forge on. I just want to get it done. Maybe so I can high five myself for finishing something I currently associate with failure. Definitely for the physical benefits. So I will pick up Day 2’s workout come tomorrow and move forward from there. I think the most important thing for me to remember is that Insanity (or any other workout program) is not a bullet train to achieving some fitness goal. I look at the 60 day calendar and mentally check off each workout and imagine that any and all health and body image problems will be solved forever. That is not a sustainable mindset.
Instead, I’m trying to keep the following things in mind:
1. I am physically capable of doing anything.
2. I am content to work out even if I knew my body would look the same day in and day out.
3. I can embrace the discomfort.
4. I can integrate Insanity into my fitness plan any way I want–it’s not all or nothing.
My overall goal will be to just move–and move hardcore–everyday, whether its Insanity or not. So maybe it will take me four months to finish. Or maybe I will hit my stride–Samantha promises I will find a groove. And you know what? I think I believe her. I think that maybe if I can just get past Day 1 and positively align my mentality, I could maybe, possibly learn to love Insanity. We shall see.
Regardless, here’s some fitness tidbits from this week:
Favorite (fitness) article: This one reminded me that the only person I need to compete with is myself.
Goal for next workout: To battle the bore by practicing mindfulness during my workout.
Biggest mini-success: Doubling the number of switch kicks since my October Fit Test.
Workout saboteurs: Insanity is loud and my poor neighbor let me know in the middle of my first workout. Well, at least I think that’s what she was going to tell me. I quickly shied away from the peephole and hid until she went away, and then moved the workout upstairs. Thank goodness we have a loft. (Also, I know, I’m very mature for not answering the door).
Favorite pin: This is definitely my mantra for next week!
Sorest muscle:I hardly moved my bod at all this week. But dang. My calves feel like a monster truck ran over them.
I will be back next Saturday with an update. Please send good vibes my way!